ridestherider | (no subject)

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[It's not "missing" if you've just been staying in for a few days, right?

Either way, she's boxing things up.]

I'd be lying if I hadn't said the same exact thing before. And yet, here I am.

Well, I mean it. They're not coming back just for me, I better get used to things on my own.

[ I hope you realize you're saying this to someone who will be spending most of the rest of his life alone ]

You don't know they won't.

The only reason we all came together again before was because we were all chasing after Tsukasa-kun. Daiki-san came back, but only because he was looking for him. Not for me.

I'm a little bit smarter than I look. Nothing they do has anything to do with me. [And that sounds pretty final.]

Maybe they will come back. Maybe they won't. But that doesn't mean you have to cut yourself off and force yourself to be alone. You still have the opportunity to get out and go places and meet new people. You still have the opportunity to travel wherever you want once you leave here.

I have to get used to not having any of them here at all, and coming back here and being alone. You can think I'm ridiculous, but it's harder than it sounds.

I know exactly how hard it is.

[ quietly ]

It;s better if I just force myself into it.

If you say so.

[ he'll settle down into a chair here ]

[And now you're as mad at me as the cat is. Which is great. Never should have answered the door.]

[ not mad, just a little disappointed and mostly annoyed with himself for bringing it up to begin with ]

I'm sorry you wasted your time.

[ sighing a little ]

I didn't. Come here.

[ holding out a hand ]

[You can have that much, at least.]

[ you're gonna be tugged in his lap and get a hug, miss ]

I'm sorry if I've been a jerk.

You haven't. It's just not going to work the way you want it to, for me.

It hits a little too close to home, is all.

I wouldn't have talked about it at all if I'd known, or you hadn't pressed it so much.

I just don't want to watch you make the same mistakes I did. I do.

It's not like I'm trying to cut myself off forever, just ...

[Sighing a little.] I woke up this morning, and I still expected to see him. And I can't keep doing that.

It'll get worse before it'll get better. I still expect to see Xia Tian around, and then I remember whose Yi Neng I'm actually feeling.

[ absently petting at your head ]

I'll give you a week. Any longer than that and I'll come drag you out by your ear, if I have to.

You're not going to come break my door down, are you.

[ tilting his head to look at you and wrinkling his nose ]

I might if it becomes necessary.

I wasn't planning to stay in that much longer, but now I just feel like doing it to taunt you.

I think you'd have a rather difficult time resisting if I really wanted to take you somewhere.